I'm currently reading Hind's Feet on High Places at the recommendation of Ruth Mann. It's been fabulous to re-read it. (Dad read it aloud to us many years ago, but I don't think it impacted me to the extent that it is right now.) But, here's the lesson that I learned from last night's reading.
"Whenever you are willing to obey me, Much-Afraid, and to follow the path of my choice, you will always be able to hear and recognize my voice, and when you hear it you must always obey. Remember also that it is always safe to obey my voice, even if it seems to call you to paths which look impossible or crazy."
So with all that ... I'm trying to trust my Shepherd and to listen to His voice, even if the path seems crazy and absurd. Like interviewing on Friday with the ERAP committee? What in the world am I doing? Do I even want to go to China?!? No, not really. Honestly. But, I feel that I need to at least follow up to this point and that's what I'm doing. I've been searching and begging God to show me and to lead me so that I might hear His voice telling me what I should be doing. What I thought that would mean didn't happen for me -- what I wanted obviously wasn't what God wanted for me or I wouldn't be in this position right now. So, maybe that means hearing His voice in China?
Oh, I'm so scared. Why is it only 47 days until graduation? Why can't it be more so I have more time to figure things out? [sigh] Trusting is so hard. I am a lot like Much-Afraid, maybe that's why I keep crying throughout the book. Who knows ...
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I don't suppose you remember when I read that book to you guys how disappointed I was when I had to make you sit there and listen. I was just about your age when I read it for the first time and it had the same impact on me that it is having on you this time.
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